So, broke up with the fiance last sunday. Really dont want to get into it really.Other than I walked away from him.Putting an end to it.

Now Im stuck at a crossroad in my life. Im trying to figure out what I want to do and where I really want to go. Looking at January heading back to Fresno for awhile. Mom needs help and well it would be nice to be around her and actually have someone who understands whats really going on. Not to mention being around a small community that I know and love me..i hope anyways. But mostly..I need to be around my mom. Life been so hard for both of us and reality we're each others cheering squad at the moment. Reminding each other that we need to keep going...its really hard.

Either way. I'm taking a week off in Oct. 4-11 to go back to mom and visit with her and some friends for a week. Should be really nice getting the hell out of Reno. I hate it here so much. Nothing but soul rending and failure at every step...

lets hope I do something right for once..
<3Beth.